Remembering my nephew!!!
I remember when a sweet little boy was born and brought home from the hospital. He had chubby cheeks and really did look a little like a chipmunk. I also remember him looking up at me with those little eyes and falling in love.
I will never forget the time his sister helped to change his diaper and exclaimed: “he has a shoe with a high heel and all I have is a powder puff” go figure the analogy of anatomy.
I remember a toddler who wanted to look, smell, touch, and taste everything. He was everywhere trying to discover all the wonders of this world he lived in. He and his cousins roamed between his house and his grandmothers all day every day. We were constantly trying to keep doors locked and four young people safe. We made it until today.
Today at 1 p.m. I received news of Ewell’s death. The flood of emotion was overbearing. All these memories and some barely remembered suddenly came rushing back. How are we to cope with the loss of a loved one? My head accepted the news but my heart and soul were gouged with despair. Even though we knew this day was coming, due to his cancer, it is still a shock to know that he is no longer with us.
I believe he died in peace and with the belief that he will be with his dad, grandmothers and grandfathers. I know his thoughts were of his family before the ability to talk was taken away.Â
He was only 40 years old. Death had no sense of right or wrong or acceptability of when it should arrive at a family’s door. Death just appears and we mortals must learn how to deal with the loss and remembrance of a loved one.
I will remember tonight all the little things that made Ewell, Ewell. The good, the bad, the ugly. I will remember it all to cope with my grief and to come to terms with this loss. Each of us must deal with it the best we can, either alone in my case, or with other members of the family. I will survive and will be able to function, but the pain will be there to remind me of him and his life. Pain will be my companion for some time to come. I have learned how to accept and learn from this experience. It just seems it is happening too fast and too much to our family. God bless each and every member of the Dempsey and Conley families.
God does love us all.
Warlick hits the nail on the head with students loving to see their material posted, otherwise they would not be writing their thoughts on their own blog, I do find it disturbing because students do not have a self management on their thoughts or emotions at this time of their life and I am afraid what they could inadvertently post without thinking of the ramifications. I